The dark half of the year is always hard for me. I am pretty sure I get seasonal depression and I've been feeling funky for the last month or so. It's been pretty deeply ingrained in me (and I'm sure this is also true for many others) to hide this dark side and pretend every is a little better than it actually is. I'm feeling called to share my truth though. I'm feeling called to be vulnerable and let people see me.
I got fired for the first time ever this year in October. While I'm better off mentally because I'm not feeling so bullied anymore, I traded that sense of financial security in for that. I'm a little scared, but I'm trying to focus on what is more valuable to me.
I have the best group of friends anyone could ask for. They matter to me. I get scared I bug them too much, but they are always there to lift me up when I feel like I've fallen down.
I am not a perfect little "love and light" tarot reader. Life is too real and too messy for that. Sometimes we bumble around in the dark a bit before we find the light again. It's normal to feel scared of what we can't see in front of us.
A mantra I've been having to remind myself when I feel this scared is to just let go. This is my way of letting go of this perfect image and letting you all in.
I love reading the cards for other people and maybe opening up a new perspective on a problem that they haven't seen yet. I also just love listening and offering advice. I think helping people is my calling. I'm doing a little soul searching right now of how I want to apply that career wise. Tarot is my fun little passion project, but a girl has to pay the rent, too.
If you wanna chat, have me pull some cards, or just want a hug and some tea, hit me up. Thank you for reading and letting me open up to you tonight.
You're magical. You got this.
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